February 2nd, 2010

A hundred thousand fucking millennia later...

Hello world.

In case you've forgotten me, I'm Raini, and I'm born to win. Sort of.

Well. A few things got me wanting to write in this little badboy again. I've pulled myself out of such a very unhappy marriage and moved on to Bowling Green, Ohio. With Bucket.

Cue Laverne and Shirley montage.

And so then. There was Tyler. I won't get into the deep, amazing epic love because it hurts too much.

How, you ask?

The deep, amazing epic love only went far enough for him to not want me to ever be with anyone else, but allowed him to screw around on me when I wasn't looking. And have him decide that he didn't want to be with me, but he wanted to be with me SOMEDAY. Just not now. But also, I shouldn't be with anyone.

Despite said deep, amazing epic love... why would I want to be with someone I can't trust? Bzzzzt. Next.

So rather than be a permanent part-time cashier at Home Depot forever and ever, amen, I decided to plow on ahead with my culinary dreams. I'll be moving to Chicago with my friend Thomas in May to attend Le Cordon Bleu, so I can be a pastry chef.

Cue Mary Tyler Moore theme song.

It's kind of odd to think that I'm able to feel something nice for someone after everything. Thomas is fantastic. We'll see what may or may not develop, I'm unsure whether I'm throwing in the towel to become just that girl with the big dog who makes nice cakes. Satisfactory, I suppose, but not fantastic. Or it could be.

I'm lost and rapidly trying to regain my sense of self. You know, before I pick up and move to another state and start over again, again. Re-do, seriously this time, guys. Not that I don't like Bowling Green, I actually could see myself coming back here after school. Maybe I'll always be small-town.

Also, Jason Duncan, thank you for reminding me that I'm lame about my journal. I'll fix it, srsly.
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    Reverend Horton Heat - Get Rhythm

Hmm

Yeah. I think I might like Thomas more than is wise at this point.

Oh dear. Raini does stupid stuff part 38974239873 :D

Let's see where this goes, shall we?
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    Social Distortion - Ghost Town Blues